To be or not to be.... with other words

For some time I have wondered

how words form us

The way Im talking and thinking about myself 

makes me to whom I am - partly

Therefore I have denied very hard 

that I AM sick

I dont want to BE sick

thats makes me feel awfull

To be sick is for me

to have the flue, to have cancer

I was thinking that my diseases are more like

having a function-failure

and not have the parts to replace the notfunctionel

After a discussion with a friend

makes  me think

that the difference in words

are 

TO HAVE 

or 

TO BE 

a 

sickness/sick

I HAVE a disease

I AM not sick

Do this make sense?